so about 4 songs in its getting weird sitting next to this person i have had a crush on for so long and not being able to figure out if they know ... and as i am plotting a way to get closer to him ... he leans over and whispers...."would you mind if i put my arm around you??" it feels kinda weird writing this out.... it was such a ...i dunno what to say.... i dont want to use the cliche...nice but it was, he was so sweet and ~~~~~~sigh~~~~~~~~ i think i am a puddle of krissie... soak me up and wait till i solidify and then mold me back into form... we sat outside the cable car for a bit and talked to another boy that works there -mike- and a girl that he apparently met at cable car too... i think her name was -heather-. mike has been here for 3 weeks to go to rhode island college (ric). heather has been here for a month and she goes to rhode island school of design (risd). they are both really cool... i was sitting outside of cable the other night and AND came out for a break we talked and talked and told silly stories and had so much fun. then when he went inside mike came out and went to sit at an empty table and then saw me and came over to talk to little ol' me ... he is very deep, but when we were all sitting around yesterday there were no deep conversations ... there was a bagel dropped on the ground, picked up and dipped into spice tea, there were nervous giggles from all of us.... there was an attempt at discussion of the movie but, none of us really had an opinion... i think we were all in a dream state. with the person next to us that we wanted there. then the kid in charge of closing up the cable car came out and was whining about wanting to close up and he took in all the other tables... (we were the only ones occupying a table) and we were left to sit there ... at a table that now resembled an island to me, lone, sticking out of the empty sidewalk ... trying to figure out what the night had in store. as far as i know mike and heather had only been out this one time but they were talking like they weren't about to leave each other ... they both rode bikes ... she has a little girl basket on hers ... and from what i gather he was going to show her a cd he has with william shatner doing 4 songs with ben folds five... AND & i... had no plan ... so ... we went for a walk ... we did a huge loop and ended up going to this place called -india point park- we sat on a bench over looking the water and the more industrial parts of providence. we talked about sooooooo many things ... there were 3 smoke stack towers to our far right and we talked about how the set of lights on top of them at some point must all go on at the same time. the rate of each light was different and even with that they would at some point flash all at the same time on then off and then they would get further out of sync and then when they couldnt get any further apart they would come back together..... (he wanted to be an astrophysicist....now he wants to be a photographer) i asked what he was thinking at some random moment and he said, "i have come to the conclusion that i am not one for opinions, i am more for observation... i like to watch what is going on ... like, the shadows... i love the sodium lights, they have such an orange glow that makes the sky look that purple color, and look at what a harsh shadow we leave, and its ironic because its the middle of the night"

wow

much more in depth than i expected ... we sat there for a while, what i suspect to be about 3 hours, not dressed for the weather let alone the weather sitting near the water ...