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2005-02-10����12:52 p.m.
yucky tummy...

i feel sick to my stomach.

i cant figure out what it is thou...

i did just eat an egg, ham and cheese sandwitch on toast with butter... so that could be it because lately i should just sit on the toilet when i eat because ill be there in 5 minutes anyway... sort of like my body isnt digesting or taking in food at all... but its obviously taking something from it because ive gained 20 pounds since october. but we wont talk about that... (thou i have to admit... its so nice to have !TITS!)

it could be a little anxiety mixed with my mom going to find out the results of a test for cervical cancer. i seem to have become numb to these types of things until the actual results are in and there is a second test or a second doctor. it seems that doctors tell you you have "abnormal cells that could be pre cancerous" now just to save their asses and not get sued if they find out later you have it. they can fall back on "ive been saying that since the begining"

fuck doctors and law suits. i can see suing a doctor for some REAL malpractice but people know they can sue for anything to make a quick buck and they do and thats why 3/4 of the population of women sit and have panic attacks until their results come in... so doctors can save some face. so it could be that...

it could be boots...
he makes me all butterflygooshynervoushappy and i hate it. the last entry i wrote was how disappointed i was in him and how i knew he was going to blow me off again but i dont feel that disappointment anymore... i went to sleep and woke up new and woke up thinking about him... and ill say it again... i hate it.
because i know this kid is going to break my heart. i usually dont let people pull that shit with me... you cant make it... ok... someother time... you cant make it again... ok... someother time that i leave totally up to you so you have all the say and can work around your shit... you have to break it again... "well... it was nice trying to hang out with you. suck it and choke"

i dont let people dictate my life thou sometimes i will admit i would like them to so i wouldnt have to make decisions but... no. i think for myself thank you. so were trying to make plans for the night... TRYING being the big word. he tells me he misses me and i turn into a big pile of moosh. and its been a while sine ive felt this way. and i dont want to get all lovey dovey this is the boy i want to have my kids but... this is the boy i want to keep.

but lets not talk about him... im getting gooshy and my heart is racing.

i cant remember the other things that i wanted to say because a giant spider was crawling down the plain white wall directly behind my computer and i had to jump and kill it...

oh.. yeah... i submitted a drink for a "Starbucks liqueur" competition... i came up with it last saturday night at work and i think its quite good.

if i win it i get four tickets to the opening series of the Red sox and Yankees. (which will be on ebay so freakin fast)

and a one year membership to a badass fitness spa near work... and of course... a photo and mention in the new providence montly magazine... Woo hoo!

i just want to be able to go to the badass spa for free =)

ohhh... that reminds me... there is going to be a "bartender auction" for the Tusnami relief effort and i want to get auctioned off and hlep out... so i have to go find that...

mwah mwah mwah...

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