wrong because maybe i know he changed her name... wrong that i coverd myself in grape jelly and took pictures of it as a request by him to show him i was serious about him comming to visit... wrong because i want and i am not wanted... wrong because all i had to do was ask, but i went about it all on my own... wrong because i lack the passion i know is inside of me somewhere... wrong because he has still not come to visit... wrong because when i finally found him he left me with a hold on... and then was gone... wrong because i know that i am not revered like him... wrong because im not sure i want to be... wrong because i know i want to be but i dont want to say it for fear of looking lonely... i am not lonely... i am just alone... and i wont be for long... i am going out with 2 different boys tonight while i know there is one waiting for me... wrong because its almost 4pm and i am still, again, in my pjs in front of the computer... wrong because i check my mail every 5 minutes and there is never anything in there for me... wrong because i am...
