jayson: we need to talk... (pulling her into the parlor)

krissie: bout what?

jayson: ive been having my doubts again. (this is not the first time krissie has heard this from jayson)

this just is to good. and i have this sinking feeling that its wrong. your to young. you have so much to go thru and we are going to stem off in different directions. im holding you back and you dont realize it.

krissie: (baffled that he is really doing it this time)

jayson: krissie... i love you. i love you so much and i dont want to hurt you. this just cant keep going on and ill make it worse. ive become so attached to you. i dont want to get more attached.

krissie: (starting to well up cuz its not going to continue and this is the most he has said he loved her. he said it once before and it just slipped out.)

thats stupid but if thats what you want ill be fine.

jayson: its not what i want.

krissie: then why are you doing it?jayson: its just this nagging pulling feeling that its wrong.

krissie: you dont have to do it.

(lots of crying and holding. him kissing her and holding her so tight and sweet. more i love you. she returns it in tears.)

THEY MOVE INTO THE BED ROOM WHERE HE PICKS HER UP OVER HIS HEAD AND PUTS HER ON THE LOFT BED LIKE HE DID WHEN SHE WAS TO TIRED TO CLIMB THE LADDER.

jayson: i feel like im making a huge mistake (holding her head to his chest as she sobbs)

krissie: you dont have to do this. its your choice if you do...

jayson:i love you more than anything. you make me so happy. but this is my decision.

10:02pm sunday 9/7/03

krissie: so im not being an asshole here. i just want to make sure were on the same page. were not together anymore right. no boyfriend and girlfriend thing right?

jayson:no, no boyfriend and girlfriend.

krissie: so why do you keep holding me and touching me? (ripping her hand away as he tries to hold it.)

jayson: (looking hurt and baffled)

i love you. you make me so happy. i want to touch you. (pulling her back down to rest her head on his chest. she puts her head down in her comfortable spot on his shoulder and its wet with her quickly escaping tears)

krissie: i love you. all i ever wanted was you and i knew this was to good. all for you jayson.

jayson: i just dont want you to go away. i feel like this is a mistake.

krissie: how will you know? your going to move on and forget it.

jayson: ill miss you. ill just know.

krissie: well, im not going to wait around and make you feel like you need to decide. but im not going anywhere anytime soon.

LOTS MORE CRYING ENSUES. JAYSON AND KRISSIE TALK AND HE TRIES TO JOKE AND MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES. HE SAYS HE IS HUNGRY AND SAYS HES GOING TO MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. HE OFFERS HER SOME AND SHE DECLINES AND HAS A CIGARETTE INSTEAD. HE MAKES HER A HOT CHOCOLATE. SHE TRIES TO NOT DWELL BUT ITS HARD WHEN HES MAKING BREAKFAST AT MIDNIGHT IN HIS UNDERWEAR LIKE HE HAS SO MANY TIMES BEFORE. HE ASKS HER IF SHE WANTS TO STAY. SHE WANTS TO BECAUSE SHE NEVER KNEW "THIS IS THE LAST NIGHT". SHE DEBATES. HE TAKES HER IN THE LIVING ROOM AGAIN AND LAYS HER ON HIM ON THE LOVE SEAT AND RESTS HER HEAD ON HIS CHEST WITH A LOVING HAND. TELLS HER HOW ME FEELS ABOUT HER AND TRIES TO EXPLAIN AGAIN. THINKS SHE DOESNT UNDERSTAND. SHE JUST DOESNT WANT THIS TO HAPPEN AGAIN. THE NIGHT PROGRESSES AND SHE FEELS HERSELF FALLING ASLEEP AGAINST HIS SKIN. ON HIS TATTOO. SHE SPENDS THE NIGHT. AS THE START TO FALL ASLEEP...

jayson: im going to say this now because when you leave in the morning ill be incoherent. ill talk to you soon. in a few days... we'll talk.

krissie: i know.

THEY FALL ASLEEP WITH THEIR BACKS TURNED TO ONE ANOTHER. WHEN SHE GETS UP IN THE MORINING SHE HAS TO REFRAIN FROM KISSING HIS TEMPLES AND RUFFLING HIS BABY SOFT HAIR. SHE PULLS THE BLANKET OVER HIS FEET WHICH LOOK COLD.

SHE GETS READY IN THE BATHROOM. SHE GOES BACK INTO HIS ROOM AND CLIMBS HALF WAY UP THE LADDER. SHE DOES KISS HIS TEMPLE THIS TIME.

krissie: jayson. i love you

jayson: i know.

SHE STARTS TO LEAVE AND BEGINS TO CRY AS SHE PETS PIXEL AND THINKS TO HERSELF

"i want my bed

i want my cat

i want my boy"

(he called her at work around one just to let her know he didnt forget about her. he was thinking about her and was getting ready to make a pb&j sandwitch before his 2:00 class... she says

" thats nice... thank you"