i went for my interview... results???

I HATE INTERVIEWS!!!

i guess it went well since i have a second interview next wednesday, but i took that day off so i could go to 80s night on tuesday night but now i have an interview... at 8am. so i guess i could still go out but ill be a crazy bitch the next day. home depot doesnt seem worth all the shit you have to go thru to get in there...

believe me i am NOT staying at ben and jerrys and hopefully not the mall. but i was offered a "any time you want a job at newbury comics just come in and you got it" but they pay so little and give shitty hours. but i think it would be great to work there. i guess i could try for another one that might offer better hours. and free parking.

moving on...

i have a doctors appointment on august 29th which is grrrreat. i dunno how i am going to stand not hearing for another 17 days but, its been this long right? so thats a plus. and that joe will be paying for that even after im gone.

jayson is mia as usual. i called to see how he was earlier and my guess he is out with some one whose name begins with j and has a vagina. i trust him, its all these jessies, and jessicas and jens and blah blah blah. we made sure it was clear at the begining that we both have a majority of the opposite sex as friends. but, i digress... i shouldnt let it bother me. but hes going to raidohead tomorrow with "jess, cuz we dated in high school and she hasnt changed and i have and shes so cool and i think it will be a good time".

i wasnt invited. so boo hoo. i am upset. but im playing it off like im not. is it working?

anyway. i wish i had saved some money like i was supposed to. i had about 1,200 saved until like, may but then i blew it all. i dunno how but i did. and im not getting any of it back any time soon. but my new goal...

screw home depot, im going to bartending school. its not to much money, its money i dont have, but its not to much. so i think im going to pull some extra hours at work, get my ear fixed, and then leave. it will be great.

i would be a good bartender. i really think so. so thats the plan. i was saying "by next summer" but why wait? i can do it sooner than that. but i may have to sell some of my belongings. or a kidney. but ill do it damn it.

so, im pretty upset with EVERYTHING and i will make a huge life change. i do have to pace it so i was planning on being out of b&j by the 1st but id rather sitck around for my ear. so, ive dealt with it, and i will. and ill pull some overtime, and i will go to bartender school and i will make kick ass tips by flirting with all the drunk guys. im not to proud.