lets start with hell aka... ben and jerrys at the providence place mall. i would like to bludgeon every mother, father, child, teenager, mall worker, mall manager, and andy thing else breathing in that recycled air. i was close to a murder one conviction and an anurysm on friday. i got to go from work to the emergency room. i havent been able to hear for quite some time and i decided it was time to do something about it. friday being 8/8 and that meaning i have had medical since july 1st. yes, i waited. why? no real reason. i guess i figured i should go to a doctor but then i would have to find one and make and appointment and all that... then the other day, a terrible worthless day, i decided it was time to do something about it... my right ear is tired of doing all the work. well, that would have sucked... sitting there for about 2- 2.5 hours. but i talked wendy into comming with me. time went like nothing and we mostly just got to catch up since we havent hung out to much lately. joe came down too and we had a party going on in this strange room. the guy came in to look at my ear and brought all sorts of stuff and dumped some peroxideish stuff into my head and left for a bit, then he came back and started forcing water thru my ear canal so hard and it was soooooo friggin cold. i was soaked and freezing and laughing so hard. wendy and joe were making jokes and goofing off and keeping me from passing out or killing the man trying to help me.

so, then i felt crappier when i left and still couldnt hear but it is different. much more annoying now. so i have to call and make an appointment on monday. well, thats all fine and good. but i got a call today about a job interview. its for tuesday at 7:30pm. and im really excited. yet i feel so much more apprehensive than i should. if i leave my job i wont have medical that i have waited 3 years for. and if i do that my ear goes on hold. so... i dunno. im worthless and stupid and 50% deaf and ugly and sneezy and getting sick and all i can do is bitch about it here. well, i bitched to my friend justin till my phone died.. but, im here now. the cable car is closed and im alone. jayson had to work 12 hours today. he said " ill call you after work if its not to late" and its almost 1am now... i dont think hes going to call but i sure hope he does.

but now we can go into the greatness of leaving my current job. it will be so great to see the look on their faces. it will be so great when they hear me say "i got another job". i wish that could be followed by " i got another job making what im making now to start! you guys have done nothing but dick me around and now your here, looking for a new manager, you had no idea that i knew did you???!!! and you have no sucker to train them! good luck finding someone to try to run this place while knowing nothing about it. have a great time trying to keep everyone here from tourturing someone new that is all of a sudden above them. have fun working all my hours till you find that special someone... have fun saying all those terrible things you have had to say while i wasnt there... you can say em all day everyday... have fun trying to keep your staff. but most of all, have fun doing all the shit i did, yourself. fuck off and i hope the lot of you fall down steep metal staris."

but i dont think that goes for a good reference.

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